What Will Become of Me: Navigating Reluctance, Imposter Syndrome, and the Journey of Transformation

by: Angela Munoz

In life, there are moments when the path ahead seems both exciting and daunting, when the weight of expectations and the specter of imposter syndrome cast their long shadows. As I tread the educational path toward becoming a Doctor of Information Technology, I find myself at the crossroads of reluctance and determination, facing the realities of an uncertain future.

Paulo Coelho's "The Alchemist" resonates deeply during this transformative phase. Santiago's journey to discover his Personal Legend mirrors the adventure I've embarked upon – the pursuit of a dream that holds the potential to reshape my life. Yet, like Santiago, I grapple with reluctance, questioning whether I possess the fortitude to turn my aspirations into reality. The whispers of imposter syndrome linger like shadows, reminding me that the path to transformation is lined with doubts and insecurities.

The weight of expectations, both internal and external, adds another layer to this intricate tapestry. Family, children, and community all have woven their hopes into my journey. The belief that my accomplishments can serve as stepping stones for future generations fuels my determination, but it also intensifies the pressure to succeed. "The Alchemist" teaches us that the journey is as valuable as the destination – that the process of becoming molds us into the person we are meant to be. Embracing this wisdom, I acknowledge that the expectations are not chains, but guiding stars, lighting the way forward.

Facing the realities of the future is both exhilarating and nerve-wracking. The prospect of wielding the knowledge and expertise of a Doctor of Information Technology carries the promise of change – change for my family, change for my community, and most significantly, change for myself. The technical prowess I cultivate will serve as a beacon of possibility, igniting curiosity and inspiring those around me to push their boundaries. Just as Santiago's journey impacted those he encountered, my journey bears the potential to create ripples of transformation in the lives I touch.

And as I ponder how this educational odyssey will change my life for the better, I find solace in the wisdom of "The Alchemist." Santiago's pursuit of his Personal Legend taught him that the universe conspires to help those who dare to chase their dreams. The challenges, the setbacks, and even the moments of reluctance are all threads in the tapestry, each contributing to the story of who I will become.

As I continue this journey, I am reminded that transformation is not without its moments of doubt and hesitance. But just as Santiago uncovered treasures beyond his wildest imagination, I am poised to discover the treasures that lie within me – the strengths, the resilience, and the unwavering spirit that will carry me through. And when I reach the summit of becoming a Doctor of Information Technology, I will not only have achieved a title, but I will have sculpted a legacy – one that will shape the aspirations of my family, enrich the tapestry of my community, and illuminate the path for those who dare to dream.

"The Alchemist" reminds me that we are all alchemists of our destinies, transforming the base metal of uncertainty into the gold of self-discovery. With each step I take on this journey, I forge ahead, ready to embrace the transformation and discover who I will become.